I've said things I truly don't really mean. Like, it was nice seeing you. It seems like something so empty to say. I want to say it with emotional backing.

I have some dislike of my friends
I think there are several contributing factors.
-I expect too much.
-Sometimes they really ARE on a different planet.
-My 21st "birthday" dinner / ruined 21st birthday
-I seem to have some coolness ratings - something I think I need to shake, but the sort of counterargument of that your time is precious and it's hard to decide who is worth your while.