I want to blog this out, and I think I should just blog it out now than later and just get it all out. I’ll just try to get the jist and fill in the rest later.
I forget when we had made plans to go clubbing this past Saturday, yesterday’s Saturday. Probably about a week ago we made plans. Steph/Cathy asked me if I wanted to join them and Shams to go Up or On the Rocks in Hartford on Saturday. So I guess I had said yes. And then also, I saw on Facebook that Shams had invited Elly to go, as well. And so Elly replies back that she is up for it. So I’m like hey alright guess I’m going, too.
Btw, we were supposed to go clubbing with Steph and maybe another time with Cathy and they bailed because they didn’t feel like it. I should convince them telling them they will have fun when they get there. UGH.
I had thought about backing out because I want to get my schoolwork done; that is priority. :sigh:
ALSO, on Friday, the day before, I had saw Cathy at the Student Union and asked her about clubbing to double check that we are still going. She seemed surprised that I asked to make sure we are going, weird. And she told me Jie was joining us, but was unsure of the exact status of Steph.
Just GOD, I didn’t hear from anyone at 8:30, called around 9 or something to Cathy, then to Jie ‘cause Cathy said yesterday that Jie was joining us. No word for a while. So we just went ahead and get ready. I don’t get it, how do people miss their text messages?! I just don’t get it. I don’t get this lack of communication and planning shit, more so the communication aspect. It’s just ridiculous. Like I know this is all just for fun, but ya can still let someone know, and people were waiting for other people. It’s different than the time I skipped Greg’s birthday dinner because I was really jetlagged and no one was really waiting for me, Steph and Bieu WERE going to pick me up, however they were 1 hour last anyway. It doesn’t seem like they fucking value my company anyway. I know before I just went on and on about the whole Eric thing, but also these friends weren’t giving me much help, however also my mind was a little set on certain things. And I don’t always exude happiness, sometimes I am just so energy depleted. And I realize I gotta identify what I want, and aggressively get it – that’s kinda the plan of the night at Foxwoods was, also. Let me go on…
We get gorgeous and sexy! I wore my white one shoulder tank from Express. Elly did my make-up, it turned out great like before! Took a couple pictures. Then we drove out to get monies from ATMs. While Elly went to her bank, I called Cathy again and got a response this time. I had found out at 11pm that Steph had work to do, Cathy got an infection, Jie could still go out, Cathy had told Jie to call other people and Shams really wanted to go out and offered to give me Shams’ number, but it was already 11pm... I didn’t say yes or no just was eh. I think this lack of communication could come from Cathy’s apathy towards AASA, though that can be overanalyzing the situation. Or let’s just say sometimes people get wrapped up in their own shit. She also did fall asleep. I told her understandable, you couldn’t help getting an infection and so you don’t want us to get sick and I don’t want to get sick. I also told her our options and told her that some Asian pdpsi boys hollered at us – which she didn’t understand and I had to explain, no big to me. Just when I don’t understand or know some things, people will be all condescending. Anyway she said have fun. And so I was like daym I don’t care what we do. But I was getting excited about Foxwoods earlier because those pdpsi boys mentioned going to Foxwoods, I was like hmmm what a novel idea. I hoped they would call. I texted Clinton to find out what the pdpsi boys are doing but they were kickin it at the pi house. And I wouldn’t want to go show up there, it would all be frat and sorority people and I would be really, really out of place. Pi house – no. I didn’t really like Up at all that much, it was mostly girls, the guys just stood around there watching not dancing and talking about how they wanted the really hot girl that didn’t want to dance with them, plus they are all either Latino, white or black, no Asians. I guess you can say that’s what I’m currently into if you wanna pigeonhole me like that, go ahead. Up – no. But I kinda left it up to Elly ‘cause I was really like not care mood because I was frustrated. So we went! Yay! Tried to call Dupree along the way, but no pick up. Then I called up Ricky see if he would come out, but it takes 1.5 hours for him to get there and then he would have to pay 20 dollar cover for like 45 minutes of fun. He was actually gonna come I guess thinking we were gonna stay awhile and gamble. Then I told him no it’s a waste of time, as he had said before, weirdo. Geez. I think he likes me idk though, though Bieu had mentioned to me about the time Ricky called me up to hopefully meet up I told him I couldn’t, already ate lunch or whatever and Bieu was nudging me like hey heard you blew off Ricky or something like that I’m like what are you talking about… but I’m not interested in anything other than a friend.
We parked, finished off what rum we had – mission accomplished with that, got into the Casino, did the bathroom thing, found Shrine, but then I forgot my phone in the car so we went back to the car and also turned off my ipod.
THEN we went to Shrine, finally. The line got shorter, yay! And then they checked out IDs. The guy did a lot of looking back and forth, and then when he checked Elly’s ID, we had to wait, I guess the guy was unsure that her picture looked like her so he got another guy to look. We walk in and are ushered to the cash register. The girl tells me 20 dollars. But then I guess one of the bouncer guys said something and then the girl was like go ahead. Me and Elly are like, whaaat? Ha haaaa, we didn’t have to pay!!! We saved 20 dollars!! YESSSSSSSSSSSS! The place was mad crowded. The dance floor is small. So crowded!! We walked around to check it out, so crowded! There was this Asian guy just standing around on the dance floor. I kept kinda following him and looking at him. He would occasionally be grooving to the music and not dance with anyone and he didn’t seem to have any friends around him at all and he’d go different areas a lot.
And we found some space to dance and were like yea! And then this Indian girl joins us basically like YEA GIRL You goo and can I get in on this. She was real friendly. I wonder where she was from. It looked like her parents or somebody were standing behind her against the wall ‘cause they were some older folk. Maybe they were all about of the bachelorette thing going on, I think I saw 2 girls with bride-to-be sashes, when I saw them I read it and then smiled at them. That Indian girl was cool, kept us going hehe.
So before we left the car, I said we are gonna figure out what we want, do what we gotta do to get it and get it! See what you like and get it! I finally went to the guy. I had to go out of my way through some people, actually I think I had Elly move, yea that’s right. Then I asked him if he was having a good time and asked him to dance and we exchanged names. He wasn’t a bad dancer and grinder, he was fun! He would break out groovin’ a lil that was fun I liked that and other times we danced face to face he would looking at my body I guess. We were a lil touchy feely but it wasn’t too much. It was fun.
He followed us, we were going to our car but well took a detour because we didn’t know where the hell we were going. We got to the car, we hugged, he said I think it was kit me up when you come here? Idk, but I was like come pick me up. He put me in his phone as Foxwoods, I don’t even know if he remembers my name. Then we kissed/mini-made out. He is a good kisser. He said something after, but I didn’t catch it.
It was nice holding him and hugging him.
I still think Eric is the match for me, @@.
I’d also like to say that I had mentioned to Steph to go to this Asian comedian workshop on Saturday at noon. She’s all like yea, one of use will call each other or run to each others’ room. I guess that’s what I should have done, go to see if she was in Bieu’s room. And I could have called Greg and see what the status on Cathy and clubbing was. !! So annoying though.
I take anyone’s word. No one seems to honor their word.
