For some daym reason I thought what people do is just piss off all day, so I was kinda lot in the reality of what work I had to do. I just always see certain people always relaxing, watching a movie.

I haven't been being real with myself about the reality of where I am. Also, I don't give guys a chance. I don't give people a chance for some time. I'm being like the kid in Catcher in the Rye.